skipped qihang cos i was still pondering over the stoopid thing. i can't change anything. so why am i feeling so down? it's just so simple. dey expect to give others a chance. what about people like weiqi and amelia? why not give them a chance as well? to develop talents right? sigh. it's just so contradictory. this "battle" will never end. but it just takes time to accept. i'm just scared it will take too long. groans. whateva. i'm qt confused.
but some gd stuff took my mind off things. yay! my father buying me a new comp...=) okies. tt will lift my mind off things. okies. needa go. =)))))

cried for 2 hr or more last nite. went to bed, but just kept thinking abt what happened. groans. it's just so difficult to accept it. hais. i cried. no real or exact reason. just mixed feelings. just so confused. so worried. so afraid. so shocked. so disappointed. n for the sec 4s. i'll miss them. definitely. hais. just b4 the listening, i was still thinking abt it. groans. now i know why dey said expect the unexpected. hais. i dunnoe how to put it. in case malisa reads it...den dere will be alot of confusion. sigh. i've tried talking to other friends. n dey were just as shocked. see, muikee really has the support. even "outsiders", meaning not from my cca. i'm really v v v confused. really need to talk to someone. plss. arghs. i really feel like crying now. arghhhhs. malisa n muikee are my two really close friends. but to be a little more objective, muikee will be more responsible n malisa has more ego. yups. but nothing will change now. i'm really on a verge of breakdown. hais. must really learn how to deal with disappointments. yes. i've got news from a reliable source why muikee did not get the post. she was just sooooo close to getting it. but some idiots have to give some ridiculous excuse. pure biasness. i'm just so worried abt the cca. wad if it collapses under our hands? malisa was the unexpected one. so what does tt mean? it means that people didn't think she had the capability to lead the cca. so dey wun listen to what she says. tt's really scary. meaning not the whole cca will listen to her. yes. n chaos. i'm her friend. n moreover i've promised serene. i'll support malisa. yes. although i've got some objections. i'll still give her my utmost support. sigh. i've still got so much in my heart. it's starting to strangle me. i'm feeling so stressed even b4 i've started doing anything for the cca. no wonder they said physchologically is most difficult. sigh. it's just so complicated.

serene : kinda surprised u signed my gbk. n thanks for the luck. just feel like crying all over again after i read ur entry. i know i know. but this chance is really too big. what if u give her the discipline-secretary? isn't that really big also? can't believe it. i know muikee is really feeling disappointed. but somehow she can hide her feelings really well. i dunnoe how the sec 4s think. but there seems to be some ums, confusion. i know it's not just the support that counts. yes. pple respect malisa for her musicality, and the high level of music playing. yes. so i guess u know what i mean. tt's my opinion. the president ( u shld knoe ) needs the support of EVERYONE, which u successfully got. ( congrats! ) but if u read what i wrote above...u'll know what i mean. n i dun want all ur hard work to go to waste. yes. i guess it's too late to change now. but if there's a will, there's a way. n we'll try to keep our relationship as good as last time. muikee has told me most stuff i assume. n plsssssssss dun ask muikee abt the elections animore. she really feels stressed when u all ask her that way. she wants all of you to have a gd impression of her b4 u all leave. yes. i'm also hoping tt u'll have a gd impression. but i dunnoe. honestly. i really feel disappointed.

to whoeva who gave the stupid ridiculous excuse : u definitely have no common sense.



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omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg -screeeeeeams- omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg -screeeeeeeeeeams- omg omg omg omg just can't believe it!!! gosh. really so dammit shocked. my heart missed a beat when the results was announced. the stoopid days, hrs, mins, seconds etc we were discussing abt the allocation of the posts are over. hais. so disappointing. groans. i'm the student conductor? -puzzled- is there some stupid mistake? i'm supposed to learn under mr chan? omg. i'm sorta frightened of him. yups. totally. gosh. can u believe it? -faints- i'm sooooooooooo dammit sure they made a mistake somewhere. not that i'm being ungracious...but me?!!!!? WHY?!!!? omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg. no words can describe how i'm feeling now. just so confused...so shocked. n so lost. what if i do something wrongly? tt's bad. the conductor gets the most criticisms. yucks. i'm feeling so worried now. if the standard drops, i'll be the first one go get it. oh mans. *smacks head* omg omg omg. no wonder mr chan was staring at me the whole time. literally the WHOLE time. die. i'm freaked out. hais. so disappointing. muikee did NOT get the president post. so disappointing. went to malisa. gosh. she's still my friend, but it's just tt i feel tt she does not have tt leading stuff in her. hais. think she is abit more ums, more into the music field? yikes. she nv stays back to tidy up or wadsoeva. hais. guess she'll have to change alot. wish her luck mans. guess wad. i cried for muikee just now. when i was showering. so disappointing. hais. but lucky the water was so cold. so it washed away my tears. so sad. sigh. no happy words for me. hais. mebbe except for ums, physics? hahas. i've got another a1 to add into my collection...=) hahas. thanks to serene. ahhas. lift my mood up a little. ahhas. she's so sweet. promised to write in my autograph book. bad. tmr got listening. groans. so sad. ok. the list is included below...*points*

MUSIC COMM
concert-mistress: cheryl
Asst " : yunsheng
Vln II SL : huei li
Asst " : joy
Viola SL : Angeline
Cello SL : charlotte
DBass SL: hanyou
SC : me

ADMIN COMM
president: malisa
vice " : an qing
discipline secretary: hanyou
asst " : deborah
treasurer : matilda
asst " : joy
librarian : yeong hui
asst " : tessa
Quarter mistress :
-violin : kylie + felicia
-viola : clare
-cello : jiang lai
-d bass : clara
Level Coordinators :
-sec 2 : yeu shinq
-sec 3 : stephanie
-sec 4 : muikee

a round of applause for all those above!!! congrats! *huggggs*

heys. hahas. so funny. keep feeling tt today is the 1st day of school. mebbe b/c after the e-learning thingy. hahas. malisa was telling me abt her interview. hahas. so cute...=) can even talk until out of pt. ahhas. so funny...!!! yups. qt excited abt tmr...=) getting the results tmr! wth. listening n oral chinese is like so near?!!? idiot. dun even give me time for mental preparation. hmms. 15th july is definitely gonna be a bz day mans. hahas. in the morning have syf. den afternoon have chinese oral. den must go for mep after that. -faints- anw, qt proud of my ss. hahas. 1st time got A!! congrat me! hahahs. anw, chem was qt impressive also...=) but the tcha sucks! definitely. talking some rubbish the whole time. yucks. the alicia key song below sucks. yes. only the lyrics look nice. but the song is terrible. horrible. hahas. okies, hearing the stupid kid song now. v cute...=) sounds rather pentatonic! -grins-

i'm trying to d/l kazaa now. hahas. saw this v nice lyrics by alicia keys. want to know how it sounds like lyrics below *points*

Right now I feel like a bird
Caged without a key
Everyone comes to stare at me
With so much joy and rivalry

They didn't know how I feel inside
Through my smile I cry
They don't know what they're doin' to me
Keeping me from flyin'

That's why I say that
I know why the caged bird sings
Only joy comes from song
She's so rare and beautiful to theirs

Why not just set her free
So she can
Fly, fly, fly
Spreadin' her wings and her song

Let her
Fly, fly fly
For the whole world to see
She's like caged bird
Fly, fly
Ooh just let her fly

Just let her fly
Just let her fly
Spread the wings
Spread the beauty

yay! so proud of my mep results! *beams* okies. i'll not show off. yups. must i really must improve on my practical. got the lowest. n i mean really low. yucks. okies. tt cher can bully. but his compositions are nice...=) okies. enuf of chinese music. quick start on gamelan! sounds so interesting!!! -grins- okies. really tired. still must do ss n maths. drained

heys. another early entry...=) yups. already got qt alot of pple online. hahas. yay! malisa's back...=) yups. she's also going for interview. -shocked- okies, wadeva. yay! epebble is finally speeding up. compared to yest morning it's qt impressive...=) but i still cannot see any chinese hmw when mui is insisting that there is...=) okies. needa start printing again. groans

shit. maths suddenly appear chinese words. wth. hais. anw, gonna slp soon. stared at the comp for damn long. ahhas. gave up at abt 12+ hahas. just too screwed up. yups. i was a nice gurl today! faxed the hmw over to xinyang. hahas. yups. i'm proud to say tt i finished amaths, e geog, bio, phy n chem. yups. "cheating" now. ahhas. trying to d/l everything like mad...=)

hahas. so funny. took this stoopid quiz. or was it just filling in my name?

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morning! guess this is the FIRST time when sooooooooooo many pple are online. ahahas. n i'm taking ages to login to epebble. groans. yups. feeling so tired now. hahas. okies. needa check

heys. 1st day of skl. yups. all sorts of things happening at the same time. yups. hais. so tiring. n the interview was like shyt. just crapped thru the whole time. n was trying to be as modest as i cld. ahhas. pushing everything to mk...=) okies. needa print stuff. ttfn~

yucks! cut my hair. look like freak now! so dammit short. YUCKS!!! skl's reopening tmr n i've still got mep to do. i give up. sigh.
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg guess wad. i'm supposed to go for some interview tmr. for p post. yucks. was confident tt it was muikee. hmms. but i've told mui tt i'll support her no matter what. so i guess i'll withdraw frm the interview. yups. but wad if _____ becomes p? gosh. den it'll be worse than hell. how? -dilemma-